@monkey @technicallydifficult @georgia gortness gracious
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey i will say i think starting any kind of rp in the replies of a gort about how fedi is too horny is probably not desired
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey yeah thats why i specified any kinda rp. just really contextually out of the blue
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey your propic and new nick plus the mdni nsfw really gives off a different vibe
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey just my opinion but I think it would be good for you to stop looking for external validation or new external rewards or changes in external circumstances so much and to really look within yourself and find joy in your own being
@georgia @technicallydifficult @monkey im ngl this talk of pfps is making me think about how much i love pylgia
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40@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey pylgia is my current pfp but i dont remember having a blue girl before
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey wait i think i had a pfp for a while is that who?
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey i went gris main character -> lain -> coral glasses (several years) -> pylgia with mask -> chief -> pylgia no mask (with some switching back and forth in the chief/pylgia transitions)
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey oh thats chief
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey you can tell bc she never takes off that earring
@georgia @monkey @technicallydifficult it seems like the earring is actually spiritually part of her
@georgia @technicallydifficult @monkey i have no clue but some blue power comes out of it in the fight against shin alongside pylgia right after god says the blue is part of chief as much as the red (shackles). also even when chief is a disembodied soul, that soul is always wearing her earring. whenever an immortal sees her soulβs earring they instantly see her as a child since thats how they new her as an embodied soul. the path of doom crimebrand shows her with two earrings but we never see the other outside of it.
@georgia @technicallydifficult @monkey how so?
@lizzie @technicallydifficult @monkey its just more interesting lol I normally group all that stuff together but it seems pretty unique for a gacha
@georgia @technicallydifficult @monkey ahh fair
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey ptn writers have too much time. theres a thing where real estate investors are spreading racist propaganda to manipulate land prices outside of discity and its a footnote besides the fact that they want to kidnap elvira stewart bc they heard whispers she might be politically disruptive
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey ehh its not just a footnote ig bc it shows how bad discityβs political rot is and introduces chiefβs next enemy: rich chuds
@georgia @monkey @technicallydifficult theyβll also do things like where its clear that lichen leads an emotionally abusive cult and using it to extract power from the belief of her followers (since the perishing star gives belief concrete power)
but despite all the freaky supernatural stuff lichen can do, the cult remains painfully tacky and financially extractive. its oddly realistic for how supernatural everything is (with some exceptions like oceanography being a lucrative career but i think that was mostly to further position shin as pylgiaβs opposite since pylgia struggles to get a job. the other scientists are kinda broke and marguerite has to eat worms on tv to get money for her serious research)
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey i dont think anyone ever fully escapes their past. youve certainly murdered the perception that youre going to slide into social conservatism soon, but you were never not worthy of love, even at your most absorbed.
ive admittedly rebelled a bit against my evangelical past but the point is to really learn from our pasts
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey 
thats really not something you can thrust on someone let alone from birth
@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey id ignore them too
@lizzie @georgia @monkey
And when I rejected it, they showed their true colors, where they got really mad and started yelling that I was going to hell for rejecting the "calling" even though I was preaching apokatastasis, and started saying I was ungrateful, and wasn't a true believer, and so on. And that's when it hit me, my parents are both trying to manipulate me into the role and have their own religious delusions.
And when I rejected it, they showed their true colors, where they got really mad and started yelling that I was going to hell for rejecting the "calling" even though I was preaching apokatastasis, and started saying I was ungrateful, and wasn't a true believer, and so on. And that's when it hit me, my parents are both trying to manipulate me into the role and have their own religious delusions.
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey youre kinda in the opposite position as me. my family doesnt believe in any of the mystical experiences ive had. 
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey oh please dont worry about it the only thing that concretely supports me right now besides my own experiences is the matching mystical experiences of another who still barely believes my experiences and like five peoples divination results that line up very well with what God has told me. I dont expect anyone to believe me yet lol. but I think within a year or so it will be more clear when God radically changes my heart.
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey I dont plan on starting a cult lol. my first thing will be dispensing a religious message through art.
@georgia @lizzie @monkey
technically speaking, I could deliver my message without even making it religious. I would just have to be very careful to use a different way of explaining it. Like, the problem lies in the fact that religion is a major motivator and validator for older generations.
have you read the 16 page manifesto I put out while I was still religious? It's basically ethics, a call to action, and rules to build community. I could rewrite it to be secular pretty easily.
linky to the manifesto from when I was bonkers:
https://brain.worm.pink/notice/B4pjTnuJFb209ULPEW
technically speaking, I could deliver my message without even making it religious. I would just have to be very careful to use a different way of explaining it. Like, the problem lies in the fact that religion is a major motivator and validator for older generations.
have you read the 16 page manifesto I put out while I was still religious? It's basically ethics, a call to action, and rules to build community. I could rewrite it to be secular pretty easily.
linky to the manifesto from when I was bonkers:
https://brain.worm.pink/notice/B4pjTnuJFb209ULPEW
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey I liked some of what you wrote but I disagree with mandating prophets and priests to have whatever neurological condition. honestly the way you describe yourself reminds me of the whole new age indigo children thing.
@georgia @lizzie @monkey
I was delusional at the time. to be fair. And half of the reason for the autism side of that was that a lot of people who are related to us want bad things to happen to us, so this gave a religious reason that made autistic people sacred so we would be protected by the religion and not targeted for bullying or half-baked "cures". My parents repeatedly toyed with the idea of sending me to ABA boarding schools, special institutions for experimental therapies, and so on. I want to make the community so that such things would be unthinkable.
I was delusional at the time. to be fair. And half of the reason for the autism side of that was that a lot of people who are related to us want bad things to happen to us, so this gave a religious reason that made autistic people sacred so we would be protected by the religion and not targeted for bullying or half-baked "cures". My parents repeatedly toyed with the idea of sending me to ABA boarding schools, special institutions for experimental therapies, and so on. I want to make the community so that such things would be unthinkable.
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey I get you. I'm autistic too. really sorry you had that experience
@georgia @lizzie @monkey
Instead, they bootstrapped an Evangelicalized DIY version of ABA that I have never really healed from. Which, might be better or worse than the boarding school they had picked out, I don't know. Perhaps less violent at an actual place with government oversight and no religious bent. But you also hear horror stories about those so... eh.
Instead, they bootstrapped an Evangelicalized DIY version of ABA that I have never really healed from. Which, might be better or worse than the boarding school they had picked out, I don't know. Perhaps less violent at an actual place with government oversight and no religious bent. But you also hear horror stories about those so... eh.
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey the US regularly tramples on the rights of children. those awful forced labor wilderness retreats are one example
@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey there are lot of programs like it for kids who misbehave. they often get literally kidnapped from their bedrooms its so evil