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Holy shit I was an actual super racist

RT: https://shitpost.cloud/objects/09edc374-e116-4a6b-8a9c-95c909de63a8

@Owl
Now that's the Owl I know and love.

bring back the eschatology account for shits and giggles, i don't remember any of those posts (alzheimer's a bitch)

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I used to go fucking HARD

I was writing whole-ass books on Poa.st. There was the petty fighting sure but damn where did this person go?

@Owl
Like I've said a few hours ago:

The last Owl died from missile strikes in February. The new clone isn't the same

@SK1ZM @Owl
It's really not. Medicated Owl is my least favorite Owl. Even "I'm gonna pretend I have you on mute for a week or two but I'll probably slip up sooner than later" Owl was better than this.

Medicated Owl™️ is freaking me out.

I am actually freaking out because I am reading crazy things that I used to write that made me indistinguishable from the most hardened racist to walk the fucking planet.

what are you on, ill take the same

Seroquel and Lorazepam mostly. I was actually forced to take it for the while I was in the bin and when I got out I just kept going.

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf Do you HAVE to keep taking that garbage?

No, I'm not being "forced" to at this time.

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf
...then why do you keep taking it?

Because it saps my motivations and puts me in a state of numb-mindedness which may be a requirement for my own sake.

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf >Because it saps my motivations and puts me in a state of numb-mindedness

fucking hate that. that’s NOT a good way to live, you can barely call it being alive.

>which may be a requirement for my own sake.

NO IT’S NOT. STOP. I’M SERIOUS.

no man you don't get it. i've actually been dealing with what owl is describing for most of my life because i chose to be drunk for most of it. hangxiety is what its called

If I get off of this stuff I don't know what will happen.

i have xanax if you need it but i dont recommend relying on it. lorazepam 1mg since 0.5 is the lowest and it doesnt do shit, 2mg is the highest but they will turn you away if you ask for it

Yeah, I didn't ask for anything and everything I have now was prescribed; Xannies can cause a lot of damage. Basically when what happened happened as it did (me getting put up for a minute), the first thing that I was told was that A) I have severe sleep issues which is likely causing B) instances of extreme manic behavior and reckless impulsive tendencies. That I'm "agitated." idk what that means.

I have the max xanax for sleep and it doesnt do shit unless i pop a bunch of them