Egregoros

if you want ill give you the eschawhatever it was account back. you just have to tell me how to spell it because i have never had any idea how

Nah, I'll probably just start a new one for paranormal stuff (I wanted a paranormal Poa.st account so badly because I have almost a whole gigabyte of source docs and research on things that I never got to post or introduce).

go ahead just dont drag me into a thread expecting me to back you up when you lie about donating XMR

I was writing whole-ass books on Poa.st. There was the petty fighting sure but damn where did this person go?

@Owl
Like I've said a few hours ago:

The last Owl died from missile strikes in February. The new clone isn't the same

@SK1ZM @Owl
It's really not. Medicated Owl is my least favorite Owl. Even "I'm gonna pretend I have you on mute for a week or two but I'll probably slip up sooner than later" Owl was better than this.

Medicated Owl™️ is freaking me out.

I am actually freaking out because I am reading crazy things that I used to write that made me indistinguishable from the most hardened racist to walk the fucking planet.

what are you on, ill take the same

Seroquel and Lorazepam mostly. I was actually forced to take it for the while I was in the bin and when I got out I just kept going.

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf Do you HAVE to keep taking that garbage?

No, I'm not being "forced" to at this time.

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf
...then why do you keep taking it?

lorazepam sometimes taker -- its really hard to turn my brain off and using medication like dayvigo requires a several month commitment. i might have the equivalent of 2mg xanax over several days (i take 1mg lorazepam)

Because it saps my motivations and puts me in a state of numb-mindedness which may be a requirement for my own sake.

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf >Because it saps my motivations and puts me in a state of numb-mindedness

fucking hate that. that’s NOT a good way to live, you can barely call it being alive.

>which may be a requirement for my own sake.

NO IT’S NOT. STOP. I’M SERIOUS.

no man you don't get it. i've actually been dealing with what owl is describing for most of my life because i chose to be drunk for most of it. hangxiety is what its called

I will not defend seroquel but lorazepam has saved me on several occasions

If I get off of this stuff I don't know what will happen.

i have xanax if you need it but i dont recommend relying on it. lorazepam 1mg since 0.5 is the lowest and it doesnt do shit, 2mg is the highest but they will turn you away if you ask for it

Yeah, I didn't ask for anything and everything I have now was prescribed; Xannies can cause a lot of damage. Basically when what happened happened as it did (me getting put up for a minute), the first thing that I was told was that A) I have severe sleep issues which is likely causing B) instances of extreme manic behavior and reckless impulsive tendencies. That I'm "agitated." idk what that means.

i am also dealing with sleep issues, which will result in me probably using my xanax for the first time in months. god bless

I have the max xanax for sleep and it doesnt do shit unless i pop a bunch of them

Wait you're not drinking alcohol with the Xanny consumption right???

I haven't had any xanax or lorazepam in over 24 hours sorry

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf
If you don't get off of that stuff you're quite literally gonna lose yourself sooner than later. I've seen it happen way too many times.

I have never agreed with this nigger in my life but he's right

@graf @Xeraser @SK1ZM @Owl All i can say is knowing a lot of drug addict's and mental cases..... Drug's used to ignore the problems you have is the prime way to go insane. By cutting off your self from your self you are losing both control and sanity. There is more to it fur sure but this is a good enough fedi post.
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I am savnig this because you are right, i can't do anything about it right now nor can i can do anything by saving it but i will be back

Xeraser, the fact that I'm surprised at the things I used to post is a pretty good indicator that I've lost several different versions of myself, idk. It's a very weird experience.

@Owl @SK1ZM @graf
You're surprised because you're not yourself right now, dumbass.

@Xeraser @Owl @SK1ZM @graf it's the pregger hormones, I told u to pull out, Xeraser

@Azur_Fenix @Owl @SK1ZM @graf
hey nigger i'm genuinely concerned here, bring your shitty jokes somewhere else

im concerned but if i make a comment you will just call me names instead of resolve any issue so you kinda deserve it dude

@graf @Azur_Fenix @SK1ZM @Owl
literally what are you on about?
WAIT DID YOU DEFED FENIX LMAO

LMFAO no idea what you are talking about idiot

@graf @Azur_Fenix @SK1ZM @Owl
YOU CAN'T SEE THIS FAGGOT?

thats wise advise ngl

okay so what is this fenix thing you are accusing me of so I can go to bed

@graf @Azur_Fenix @SK1ZM @Owl
this wasn't directed at you

OK whatever you say dude

@Xeraser @graf @Owl @SK1ZM correction. KING and you will address me as "me lord".

I will do this rather than acknowledge xeracringer

@graf @SK1ZM @Owl
you know what, i'm not gonna argue back this time because
1) this isn't about me
2) owl doesn't need to hear it

ok? i wasn't looking for a fight with you either. didnt realize we needed to announce that